Love you. Forgive the grammatical error. I know, I learned in school, prep school, in college, in books, PQP does not begin prayer, phrase, period fucking unstressed pronoun, but there is no another phrase that I can use to express what feel. OK, I could say “I love you”, but it would be so right and this time, at least this timeI do not want to be right of anything. Tired. Yes, I’m tired of being the right boy who does everything right and that everyone admires so. This time I want to err, I want to dive into the sea I always avoided, I rip the face, breaking teeth, all so that you know how important it is for me.
I avoided you for so many plans, I swallowed my tears between, but it seems you want to rip that is stuck in me for so long. To paraphrase a song from the beautiful Magic Theatre, “you mess me, clutters everything,” can not escape. I swear I tried. Seriously. I’ve always been “strong man”, is not it? Always wanted to be more stubborn, is not it? But you make me lose the reins of myself and I do not know how to proceed.
Look, as much as I insist not to admit, I love you. No you did not read any blunder, I did not smoke, did not drink much less inhaled something. You know I’m an asshole for all this, I find it all very grimace and live more sober than anyone in the world. But lately I’ve been so “love drunk”, whatever that expression find ridiculous, incoherent, and mellow out my pattern, I feel so. Damn, what happened to me? Not wanting to blame you, but blaming now, this is all because of you.
You might think that’s a lie, I never called you, I was always cold. But it seems that things are changing. If I did not try it because I’m afraid. “But fear of what?”, You should ask. I’m afraid you ignore me, fear of fear, fear of losing, fear of having spent everything, afraid to be in my head, fear of not being able to match with everything that I think and feel so it not speak.
Remember that time you dreamed with us and said that no matter what lay ahead? Girl, I know you should not remember this, but I remember everything and give back to that day and listen to it again. Or when you said you loved me for the first time on the phone, you know, all the butterflies in the world, started in my stomach at that time and you can not imagine … Or when your name haunted me that day and told me it was “destiny” I hope this has left the bottom of your heart and still, even disappointed, believe us.
I do not want to arrest you, but I would like you to know I’ll always be here, as you need. I am one of the people who hope for the your success, for your happiness. No matter what will happen I want you well I want you happy. If it is beside me my happiness is complete, but I’ve changed, I do not want to be selfish, to think only of you.
Long live and be happy as more deserving. If this does not please you, disregard. Pretend you did not read discharge, smile and follows the life. Just wanted to warn, scream what kept silent. And what grammarians forgive me, but I need to speak again, even if erroneously: love you.